saying hello to a j

The birds are getting louder, fierce winds blow in my direction, sweeping, twirling the dust into a mini tornado..paranoia seeps, every sound is like the "law" out to get me, then silence, i fade out, deep breathes, i sit down, all my muscles feel loose...i stand again..m way too uncomfortable...a friend points to a dog and say "look at him relaxing in the wind"...the chuckels set in..we laugh..im sit down on the ground unable to say anything, im dehydrated,i light each and every match from the box and watch it burn, i jus feel like doing, i look at my bike and it seems to be laughing at the state im in, i can c the fenders move up down and im a little freaked out, thrs a awesome trance track playing from my friends phone, and i cant help but tap my legs, imagine all the ridiculous moves i would have made if i were standing, if i were in a position to stand that is...im home, bu ti dont remeber getting there, i dint remember parking the bike, i go upstairs and lie on the bed for a while, the phones ringing, thrs no way i should speak to her in this condition, so obviously i pick up, im rambling, she hangs up annoyed, il call her back i set a reminder in my head...its the last time i promise myself...like always. :)