mostly me

How could you ever imagine some one else taking your place? Your place in my life is cemented and its the quick drying kind so it was rock solid before you even knew it. I was as serious about not ever getting married to anyone else as i suppose you were about gettin married. Its hard to sleep and when i do, i dream of you.i wake up hoping to find you lying down next to me. or with your face buried down in m chest like you used to. but i realize its just a dream and desperately try to fall back asleep. because in my dreams you will always be mine. No wonder i want to fall asleep forever. Maybe then i will have you. You need people to remind you of my existence, mere words evoke such clear thoughts of you in my head that i wish for a second my head would explode. When you last called me i just assumed it was one of those days when you missed me terribly enough to call me, message. i know how that feels because everyday of my life is like a battle. i know you think im making it sound d...

I believe and i believe very strongly, that a bed should always have two sides. What if you wake up on the wrong side of the bed, and your bed has only one side? chances are your gonna wake up on the wrong side of the bed everyday. We would'nt want that now would we??

Im a cold blodded creature and all i mean by that is that my body temperature drops tremendously or rises ginourmously depending on the weather. Not to mention i kill in cold blood. i have not actually killed anyone thou. Not on purpose anyway. I did try to get that little boy stuck inside me out surgically but the operation failed misrebly. And the young lad is still inside breathing his last breathes. Doctors(society) have told me to make the transition quick and easy. And to just let it go. But immaturity (the name of the aforementioned lad) is a fighter and like most fighters it wont give up without a fight. If "immaturity" becomes a part of you like it has become of me,(lets face it, its who i am), then its not as easy to let go as people might think. God as my witness knows ive tried (referring to the failed operation i mentioned a coupleof lines ago) and ive given up. Now there's only one road left, which is to let nature take its course. So "immaturity...