My last letter
How could you ever imagine some one else taking your place? Your place in my life is cemented and its the quick drying kind so it was rock solid before you even knew it. I was as serious about not ever getting married to anyone else as i suppose you were about gettin married.
Its hard to sleep and when i do, i dream of you.i wake up hoping to find you lying down next to me. or with your face buried down in m chest like you used to. but i realize its just a dream and desperately try to fall back asleep. because in my dreams you will always be mine. No wonder i want to fall asleep forever. Maybe then i will have you. You need people to remind you of my existence, mere words evoke such clear thoughts of you in my head that i wish for a second my head would explode. When you last called me i just assumed it was one of those days when you missed me terribly enough to call me, message. i know how that feels because everyday of my life is like a battle.
i know you think im making it sound dramatic, and maybe i am. but that is how i truly feel. every second i feel like picking up the phone and dialing your number, one thats etched in my head, if only to hear your voice for the breifest of moments. but it hurts. The words you say when i do call, and even more with the words you dont but i think you might.
I miss u terribly. And i love you always. Only death will make me stop and there are times when i wish death would come knocking at my door. Because i know, you are my heaven.
miss you still
love you always
jay
Its hard to sleep and when i do, i dream of you.i wake up hoping to find you lying down next to me. or with your face buried down in m chest like you used to. but i realize its just a dream and desperately try to fall back asleep. because in my dreams you will always be mine. No wonder i want to fall asleep forever. Maybe then i will have you. You need people to remind you of my existence, mere words evoke such clear thoughts of you in my head that i wish for a second my head would explode. When you last called me i just assumed it was one of those days when you missed me terribly enough to call me, message. i know how that feels because everyday of my life is like a battle.
i know you think im making it sound dramatic, and maybe i am. but that is how i truly feel. every second i feel like picking up the phone and dialing your number, one thats etched in my head, if only to hear your voice for the breifest of moments. but it hurts. The words you say when i do call, and even more with the words you dont but i think you might.
I miss u terribly. And i love you always. Only death will make me stop and there are times when i wish death would come knocking at my door. Because i know, you are my heaven.
miss you still
love you always
jay
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