mostly me

I recently had a conversation with a friend of mine mid slumber about how long they would survive a zombie apocalypse. Her reply, "either forever or not at all. My slow moving body and lack of brains would make them think I was one of them. So they wouldn't bother me. Or they would chew me up, and I would turn into one of them. Either way not too worried." I may seem like im physically fit (yes I kid from now to then), but im not. I wouldnt last a minute. Especially if they were the world war Z type/ I am Legend zombies. Those muthas were fast as hell. Maybe the zombies from Zombie Land I would survive a coupla weeks. So I have decided to buy a big SUV. Add some extra protection to it. Cover it up with weapons. You may call me crazy now, but a few years down the line when the shit hits the fan remember there are only probably 4 seats in my car. *(the rest of the space is going to be taken over by weapons obviously). Also, I cant be a hero. I dont want to be one. ...

It seems like colg is finally goin to end, i cannot say for sure though because the way ive answered these last few papers i might need a couple of more attempts at getting through. but 2 years, gone by and it seems not so long ago i joined as a fledgling n now i leave well pretty much the same. people keep hoping i mature and grow up and learn responsibility, i cannot help but wonder why? who should i be responsible for if not myself. i think im doing that fine enough. well the lifestyle i lead is pretty unhealthy, what with all the drinking the smoking the drugs the sex, but i think that not what ur worried bout, its only the fact that you are jealous that i am young and you only once were, and never will be again. (unless u stumble onto the fountain of youth, which is unlikely but if you do then please ignore everything ive said, bout you being jealous.) but going back to colg. in two years time ive been introduced to more than a hunderd people, but i will remember only 5 maybe 6. ...

it sure has been a long time snce ive written anything here, 8th of feb seems to be th last date. and the reason for that was, ive been busy, working hard, got my eyes operated, joined college again, just couldn think of anything to say, but not necessarily in that order. i still dont have anything to say but now that im here i thot mayb i might as well make an entry to not let go of the habit that i had once acquired. i read an article once written by Stephen Fry, one of my preffered authors, and he had written an entire 3 pages about nothing. that was his topic of discussion. he had written it for a magazine the name of which i cannot remember no matter how much of an effort i make. nevertheless, in the article he goes on to describe how he would go about doing nothing, it should have not taken as many words, but three pages about nothing, lol, sigh, if only i could..and mayb i did. jay

How could you ever imagine some one else taking your place? Your place in my life is cemented and its the quick drying kind so it was rock solid before you even knew it. I was as serious about not ever getting married to anyone else as i suppose you were about gettin married. Its hard to sleep and when i do, i dream of you.i wake up hoping to find you lying down next to me. or with your face buried down in m chest like you used to. but i realize its just a dream and desperately try to fall back asleep. because in my dreams you will always be mine. No wonder i want to fall asleep forever. Maybe then i will have you. You need people to remind you of my existence, mere words evoke such clear thoughts of you in my head that i wish for a second my head would explode. When you last called me i just assumed it was one of those days when you missed me terribly enough to call me, message. i know how that feels because everyday of my life is like a battle. i know you think im making it sound d...

I believe and i believe very strongly, that a bed should always have two sides. What if you wake up on the wrong side of the bed, and your bed has only one side? chances are your gonna wake up on the wrong side of the bed everyday. We would'nt want that now would we??

Im a cold blodded creature and all i mean by that is that my body temperature drops tremendously or rises ginourmously depending on the weather. Not to mention i kill in cold blood. i have not actually killed anyone thou. Not on purpose anyway. I did try to get that little boy stuck inside me out surgically but the operation failed misrebly. And the young lad is still inside breathing his last breathes. Doctors(society) have told me to make the transition quick and easy. And to just let it go. But immaturity (the name of the aforementioned lad) is a fighter and like most fighters it wont give up without a fight. If "immaturity" becomes a part of you like it has become of me,(lets face it, its who i am), then its not as easy to let go as people might think. God as my witness knows ive tried (referring to the failed operation i mentioned a coupleof lines ago) and ive given up. Now there's only one road left, which is to let nature take its course. So "immaturity...