mostly me

Assuming you know all that you think you do, would the world be a better place without you? have you made a difference with your life? made anyones living worthwhile? have you ever known yourself from within? these are the answers you should be searching, superficial in eveything you look for, questions of life, those you ignore, if seeing is believing, i would see but a man, not an enlightened being who'd understand, the answers to life staring at you may be, straight in the face, yet you would not see, assuming you know all that u think you do, could the world be a better place with you??

sitting idle is not conducive, the one great thought is elusive, no work, i sit around, an empty mind is the devils playground. thoughts flow that should not exist, an evil mind, i cannot resist, flow of thoughts i cannot control, with these rhymes im on a roll, :P wheres the button that makes it stop? when will the bubble pop? minds gone astray again, evil pours through.....

its been two days since ive entered college and these guys r totally killn us, already, i have to start work on presentations, assignments, and we already have our culturals coming up, on the 26th so have to start preparing for tht, dunno wat il take part in yet but il try to do as much as i can for my school, be pro active, get recognized, is gonna be my theme for this two years... thinkin of doing my presentation on peer pressure, i have to talk for 10 mins dont know what im gonna say for so long but im allowed to have a coupla skits which shud take up some time (keeping my fingers crossed), have some ideas im working on, hopefully theyl work out fine.. they were considering me for compering(being the host of..) the show of our college, i said il think bout it, mayb knowing how to speak english mite pay off ;P but thrs always tht fear of public speaking issue ive yet to learn to deal with... let ya know how things go...

Oh hello!!! long time... found 5 rs. on the road yesterday, hadn eaten a proper meal in days, i decided not to break the trend so i bought myself a cigarette. I allow myself these minor indulgencies every now and then to get my mind off the more pressing issues of food, water, shelter. Ive decided to give up being a hippie person. Why fight a losing battle?? one of my neighbours (from the housing society i live next to..) threw out an almost full bottle of vodka, When even alcohol is being wasted i see no hope for Earths survival.. I personally dont drink. 2 years ago i sold part of my liver, drinking is bad if u have only part of ur liver, so i smoke. smoking is not a threat to the liver,not that ive herd of anyway. Speaking of threats, i bumped into an insurance salesman yesterday. Sure i live in the dirt and eat food from a thrash can but with the kind of people they meet and the houses they enter, the sheer number would give anyone nosebleeds. You could hardly blame me panicking. I...

Have u ever said to urself "god i love her so much id do anything for her.." , well i did say it, not out loud ofcourse but in my head and it may sound completely insane and totally not me but i really meant what i thought, its insane, i know. having ur love lost and losing ur love may sound the same but hey mean two completely different things, love lost is when ur with the person that u thought u loved and u thought u always will, but now after as long as it may have been u dont feel the same way for the person, u lose the feelings that u thought u had, u literally lose the love, u may or may not know wat happened, u may have seen the problems coming, or mayb u were caught completely offgaurd. love lost can hardly be found again, u try to make things work, but love requires no trying, it requires no work, love happens, it stays, it feels right, it works, and all the effort u require to make if any is to see that u dont hurt the person u love, unintentionally or other wise. ...

aye aye aye!!!! if this is the sign of things to come then i am in for a really really long wo years, the day started with breakfast (which is compulsory btw, and today it was at 630), but today it was not compulsory and this i did not know, the day was supposed to start at 630 so my day started at 5, after a coupla hits on the snooze button of the alarm i finally ended up waking up at 530, drag.... dressed in the most traditional goan outfit i could think of, which in my case was a nice cool hawaiian looking shirt, a blazer and some pants, u have to have pants... went thr and ofcourse after a few snags and hiccups things started to finally pick up at bout 8, breakfast, parathas, bread and butter, some tea/coffee, and a banana which was optional, (unlike when karsten comes over), then off to the temple, yes we have a temple in our college, for the puja, which lasted bout an hour, m not complaining just stating a fact, then outta the sun and into the ac auditorium...ahhhhh.....nice lean...